I DID IT!

Today at 1906, I finally got the courage?? guts?? to delete Bastard-Mofo's MSN from my contact list.

I know, I know. I should have done it two years ago. When the hurt was still fresh. It's not any less now as I do still think of him constantly. And wonder what he's doing. I'm not afraid to admit that I still have that little itty-bitty piece of hope in me, that one day he'll wake up and regret what he did and realise that it's been ME that he has loved all this time. He'll come back, begging on his knees and I'll take him back in my arms.. All is well again..

Ya, RIGHT! I know I have to wake up from this fantasy of mine. So today, I took another step. I deleted his MSN. I still have a long, long way to go. Being the sentimental fool I've always been. But one step at a time, no matter how small, how hard it's going to be, I'm going to have to do it. Alone.

Next, Ed-Mofo's MSN!

4th October 2009

3rd Oct
11:00pm - Just got home from Joyce's wedding dinner

4th Oct
12:00am - Fast asleep in bed
04:00am - Woke up, pack bag, iron uniform, print out paperwork
05:15am - Took shower and started to get ready for work
06:15am - Uncle came to pick me up
07:05am - Officially on the clock
11:45am - Took a break
02:45pm - Break over
10:45pm - Clocking out
11:30pm - Checked in. Had a bak-chang for supper
11:59pm - Day is over. It was just another day. Like every other day.

That was how I spent my birthday.

Happy Birthday to me ..
Happy Birthday to me ..
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to ME!!