I DID IT!

Today at 1906, I finally got the courage?? guts?? to delete Bastard-Mofo's MSN from my contact list.

I know, I know. I should have done it two years ago. When the hurt was still fresh. It's not any less now as I do still think of him constantly. And wonder what he's doing. I'm not afraid to admit that I still have that little itty-bitty piece of hope in me, that one day he'll wake up and regret what he did and realise that it's been ME that he has loved all this time. He'll come back, begging on his knees and I'll take him back in my arms.. All is well again..

Ya, RIGHT! I know I have to wake up from this fantasy of mine. So today, I took another step. I deleted his MSN. I still have a long, long way to go. Being the sentimental fool I've always been. But one step at a time, no matter how small, how hard it's going to be, I'm going to have to do it. Alone.

Next, Ed-Mofo's MSN!