Beer And Cigarettes

Why do I always turn to beer and cigarettes whenever I feel down? Do I hope that it numbs my brain so that I don't have to think about my problems? Do I hope that it gives me a throbbing headache that makes me forget the pain in my heart? Kinda like taking a hammer to your thumb when you have a nail stuck in your head.

Maybe the movies play a part?

Cue .. sound of soft waves in the background.. the sun setting into the horizon.. a beautiful girl is sitting on the beach, with a beer bottle stuck in the sand and a lit ciggie in hand. A teardrop slowly making its way down her cheek. She's pondering what went wrong. Why she is, where she is. The sky turns to night. She stubs out the cigarette, drinks the last drop of beer and flings the bottle into the water. The world is suddenly a better place and she seems to have the answer to her troubles..

I lit a cigarette. Took a puff. Took another puff. And another. I put it out. Took a bottle of Hoegaarden and had a sip. Yuck. Tried another sip. Emptied the bottle down the kitchen sink.

Nothing like a drag on the ciggie or a gulp of beer every now and then to remind myself WHY I never smoked or drank beer!

p/s : I'm no closer to finding an answer :o( Any ideas??