Melancholy

I guess I'm feeling a little pensive these days. Ever since I made it back home for my CNY reunion dinner this year. I saw how my grandmother has deteriorated in her present condition and how old my mom looks as well. My grandmother has four other daughters to look after her. My mom only has my brother and I. And that kinda woke me up.

It is sad that a person has to go through life, without knowing the unconditional love parents can give their child. I had a very tough time growing up. I don't think anyone should ever have to go through what I did. But one can never choose their parents, can they? Let bygones be bygones? That still does not stop me from wishing for something like Jean or Susan's relationships with their families. Wistful thinking, I guess.

Relationships are hard. Mother-daughter, father-son, wife-husband, boyfriend-girlfriend, friend-friend. We have to work at it. Nothing should ever be taken for granted.